Sometimes I find myself getting caught up in the "feel sorry for me blues". I start thinking if only I had done some things differently in my life maybe I could have been a better mother. If only I hadn't made some of the bad choices I made, I could have been a better person. But then I have to realize that every choice in my life, good or bad, has brought me to the point that I am today. Different choices could have changed my entire destiny and I wouldn't have the family that I have today. Would I change what I have? Not for a zillion dollars....sure, more money would be nice, more time to play would be fabulous, but the people I call family?
I am blessed with a wonderful, caring husband, 6 great kids (they cringe when I call them kids, my baby is almost 35). I have kids that call me regularly just to chat, kids that really seem to like hanging out with me, kids that never forget to say I love you mom. I even have the absolute best in-law kids! They are always willing to help when asked and when they come for dinner or parties there are always lots of hugs. And grandkids....whoa, I have the best grandkids on the planet! At this time last year I had 5 beautiful grandkids...then I got 4 new step-grandkids that are so nice, and we just got a brand new grandaughter. Yup, looking back if I had made different choices I could have changed the whole thing! So, I guess I should quit feeling bad about my past and just be very thankful for my present, because I have been truly blessed with my family.
